lack of impulse control.
Mar. 31st, 2022 07:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serafaeryhad a rough overwhelming emotional day, today.
could not fight the cookie cravings at the grocery store, got a bag of some that keto junk turned out to be yucky, picked out 3 cookie bar cookies, and got a box of "back to nature" oreos which are not any more natural than traditional oreos, but they were a dollar less.
i feel so, so, so sick now. i had the 3 cookie bar cookies, 2 keto things, and 6 oreos (5 of them without filling). if i were a purger i would totally do that, my body is asking me to, but i have a terrible time allowing myself to vomit, it's not a thing i can do no matter how sick i am, unless it really just ejects itself out of me without warning. my poor body is gently requesting to purge the poison, with these deep slow waves of nausea and tummy cramps, but i cannot comply.
ugh. worst.
the internet says if i drink a lot of water and wait ten minutes, i might be able to purge more easily. water couldn't hurt anyway, after all that salt and sugar.
ugh i feel terrrrrible.
could not fight the cookie cravings at the grocery store, got a bag of some that keto junk turned out to be yucky, picked out 3 cookie bar cookies, and got a box of "back to nature" oreos which are not any more natural than traditional oreos, but they were a dollar less.
i feel so, so, so sick now. i had the 3 cookie bar cookies, 2 keto things, and 6 oreos (5 of them without filling). if i were a purger i would totally do that, my body is asking me to, but i have a terrible time allowing myself to vomit, it's not a thing i can do no matter how sick i am, unless it really just ejects itself out of me without warning. my poor body is gently requesting to purge the poison, with these deep slow waves of nausea and tummy cramps, but i cannot comply.
ugh. worst.
the internet says if i drink a lot of water and wait ten minutes, i might be able to purge more easily. water couldn't hurt anyway, after all that salt and sugar.
ugh i feel terrrrrible.
