crow buddy
Jun. 30th, 2022 06:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serafaerythere's this guy who lives in my apartment complex (somewhere between our and finley/wispra's place) who owns a little green parrot of some sort, and he feeds the crows. on really nice evenings like this, he goes and sits outside with his bird and puts a bowl of water out for the crow family and tosses them unshelled peanuts. it's so sweet. the fledgling plays in the water gleefully. the squirrels steal peanuts. it brings me hope.
i impulse-bought suncatchers for my mom's memorial and made little handwritten tags of hearts with her name on them and handed them out to folks who came. I had like 3 leftover so two of them are hanging in my bedroom window. we never had suncatchers growing up, though we had lots of other random decorations. but mom loved rainbows - she threw such a fit one year when she made all of these rainbow banners for her church kids to bring to the children's parade during rose festival and someone told her that rainbows represent gay pride (especially in june) and she got all embarrassed and ranted that gay folks took away her rainbows, lol - "we can't even have rainbows now?!?" So I thought it might be a nice thing to gift. and well. the rainbows tossed into my room always remind me of her, now. and they always seem.... positive. a kindness. i was sobbing over her one day during a rainy bike ride after leaving the park where we used to walk - after she died i visited that park without her constantly, for a while - and i stopped under a tree to wait out the rain shower and the most beautiful unseasonable (I think it was late january, just a few days after her death) rainbow popped into the sky, and it felt so much like she was saying hello. it made me cry more but happier tears.
i try sometimes to remember how sweet she was to me in her later years. she didn't know my name or what our relationship was anymore, but she would say, "there's the most beautiful girl in the world," when she saw me.
i impulse-bought suncatchers for my mom's memorial and made little handwritten tags of hearts with her name on them and handed them out to folks who came. I had like 3 leftover so two of them are hanging in my bedroom window. we never had suncatchers growing up, though we had lots of other random decorations. but mom loved rainbows - she threw such a fit one year when she made all of these rainbow banners for her church kids to bring to the children's parade during rose festival and someone told her that rainbows represent gay pride (especially in june) and she got all embarrassed and ranted that gay folks took away her rainbows, lol - "we can't even have rainbows now?!?" So I thought it might be a nice thing to gift. and well. the rainbows tossed into my room always remind me of her, now. and they always seem.... positive. a kindness. i was sobbing over her one day during a rainy bike ride after leaving the park where we used to walk - after she died i visited that park without her constantly, for a while - and i stopped under a tree to wait out the rain shower and the most beautiful unseasonable (I think it was late january, just a few days after her death) rainbow popped into the sky, and it felt so much like she was saying hello. it made me cry more but happier tears.
i try sometimes to remember how sweet she was to me in her later years. she didn't know my name or what our relationship was anymore, but she would say, "there's the most beautiful girl in the world," when she saw me.
