to be that loving.
Jan. 14th, 2023 03:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serafaerySo fortunate to have had loving parents, who did the best they could.
Watching mom decline slowly and terribly from dementia is something i will never recover from.
dad has been gone far too long, 21 years now, and never should have been taken by cancer. i needed him. i still need him. he struggled a lot with addiction and never was able to have any sort of stable income, but he was full of love and never took his troubles out on anyone. he adored me and he never held back an ounce of love or affection. his father was brutally abusive and he shielded us from that fiercely. he was a protector and a warm, safe place. and so wise and funny and always looking for a reason to smile.
these losses are too much to bear, January days like this. it feels impossible to breathe. not sure how it still happens.
illustration by the prairie vole
Watching mom decline slowly and terribly from dementia is something i will never recover from.
dad has been gone far too long, 21 years now, and never should have been taken by cancer. i needed him. i still need him. he struggled a lot with addiction and never was able to have any sort of stable income, but he was full of love and never took his troubles out on anyone. he adored me and he never held back an ounce of love or affection. his father was brutally abusive and he shielded us from that fiercely. he was a protector and a warm, safe place. and so wise and funny and always looking for a reason to smile.
these losses are too much to bear, January days like this. it feels impossible to breathe. not sure how it still happens.
illustration by the prairie vole
