eclipse comedown
Apr. 9th, 2024 09:39 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serafaeryas sad as i am about not chasing the total eclipse this year, i'm really glad sooooooo many people got to see it. it cut through such a massive chunk of the country, in places where people generally aren't known for being in touch with nature or the earth, so to hear all these reports of people being moved to tears in places like Illinois and Arkansas was really hopeful and uplifting, for me.
it's still really far to travel to those places, the airlines of course jacked up the rates for that time period, and there was no guarantee even in texas that the sun would be out - that was touch and go for everyone, as there were thunderstorms in the morning - you can tell from photos that the clouds cleared up *just* before totality, like, minutes before. they got so lucky and i'm so glad for them. my friends who were there... the reaction posts are the best. some of them just staring at the screen with tears in their eyes, silent.
i hope it helps shift things.
i feel shifted.
i felt shifted in 2017, it's nice to feel a touch of that, again.
need to take a shower, do some more housework, and run off to silks. therapy felt pointless today but i think we're starting to figure out what i need, for future sessions. there is an issue with me "othering myself" when it comes to difficult feelings, that i need to work out how to stop doing. and i also want to figure out how to be more accepting of who and where i am in this moment. it's a work in progress.
need to reinstate sunset walkies, i think.
it's soooo funny how avalanche will perch on the arm rests of my office chair. it's not comfy! she just wants to be there. lol.
...........
Gratitude!
Today I am grateful for....
* the sun peeking out even though it was forecasted to be overcast
* time tomorrow to go hiking if i want to (or to not, if i don't)
* purring warm kitten
* warm steamy coffee
* birdsong outside
* the way avalanche chases her feather toys and carries them off proudly, once caught
* being able to drown out my thoughts with youtube videos on nights when i just can't even
* lala writing me back on instagram
* cocoa butter lip balm
* clean laundry
* a husband that is so mentally stable, loving, kind, strong, compassionate, and supportive, that his therapist fired him lol
* baristas who know my drink at the coffee shops
* spring flowers
* my therapist helping me see that my work is more meaningful than i maybe have been giving it credit for
it's still really far to travel to those places, the airlines of course jacked up the rates for that time period, and there was no guarantee even in texas that the sun would be out - that was touch and go for everyone, as there were thunderstorms in the morning - you can tell from photos that the clouds cleared up *just* before totality, like, minutes before. they got so lucky and i'm so glad for them. my friends who were there... the reaction posts are the best. some of them just staring at the screen with tears in their eyes, silent.
i hope it helps shift things.
i feel shifted.
i felt shifted in 2017, it's nice to feel a touch of that, again.
need to take a shower, do some more housework, and run off to silks. therapy felt pointless today but i think we're starting to figure out what i need, for future sessions. there is an issue with me "othering myself" when it comes to difficult feelings, that i need to work out how to stop doing. and i also want to figure out how to be more accepting of who and where i am in this moment. it's a work in progress.
need to reinstate sunset walkies, i think.
it's soooo funny how avalanche will perch on the arm rests of my office chair. it's not comfy! she just wants to be there. lol.
...........
Gratitude!
Today I am grateful for....
* the sun peeking out even though it was forecasted to be overcast
* time tomorrow to go hiking if i want to (or to not, if i don't)
* purring warm kitten
* warm steamy coffee
* birdsong outside
* the way avalanche chases her feather toys and carries them off proudly, once caught
* being able to drown out my thoughts with youtube videos on nights when i just can't even
* lala writing me back on instagram
* cocoa butter lip balm
* clean laundry
* a husband that is so mentally stable, loving, kind, strong, compassionate, and supportive, that his therapist fired him lol
* baristas who know my drink at the coffee shops
* spring flowers
* my therapist helping me see that my work is more meaningful than i maybe have been giving it credit for
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Date: 2024-04-09 08:39 pm (UTC)