being a faery for work
Jul. 17th, 2024 06:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
serafaerysparkled all day, went and swam at the gym after, totally exhausted now. i want to try to make myself make pesto, catch up on laundry, sweep, dye my hair, write a check for the hair sparkles i replenished for my website. but just kinda wanna veg.
had a funny moment at werk sunday, where i was messing around in the studio, trying to set up a video recording while waiting for a customer, and my 2nd floor window was open and i dropped my phone and it fell out the window, slid down the roof, and shot off into the bushes, lol.
i went down to try to fish it out, but couldn't find it anywhere. my customer pulled up just as i heard a little girl across the street yelling, "mom! mom! It's the fairy, it's the fairy!" as I scampered out of the bushes and back into the house, lol.
i love my job.
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i am in such a pickle! finley told me he was busy tomorrow, so i asked tyler to go to the coast. but now finley is not busy, he was mistaken. i am nervous that a trip to the coast might compromise my dancing tomorrow night, which is very important to me. but tyler time is also very important to me and i don't want to disappoint him. i would rather stay here and start Wednesday tutorials, i need to record those this year and tomorrow is the perfect day to get started on them. i want to cook for josh and get caught up on housework and give the studio some tlc. but but but. beach and tyler, also important. aaaaaaaaaaaagh. i guess i could do studio work and such another day. i just. it has been so long since tyler has cradled me tenderly. he tries sometimes, but i always pull away because he only tries when i'm irritated with him, heh. i just... don't know how hard i want to try to reestablish our closeness. to reconnect. to have some alone time with the person who has influenced my life for the better perhaps more than anyone else i've ever known. he pushed me into josh's arms, i have him to thank for this unbelievably blissful marriage, for a huge portion of my health transformation, for the lookout towers, for summitting mount hood, for mushroom foraging and skiing and hidden forest lakes and silks in the woods and so so so many wonderful things. i kinda owe him.
i am fantasizing about trying to drag finley out to a rural venue outside of seattle to see one of his favorite bands later this summer. would he take a day off of work for it? probably not. as magical as he is to me, he does not ever want to create new experiences together. no matter how many times i try to create something for us. new experiences together are a thing tyler perpetually hungers for.
will i ever not be boy-crazy.
had a funny moment at werk sunday, where i was messing around in the studio, trying to set up a video recording while waiting for a customer, and my 2nd floor window was open and i dropped my phone and it fell out the window, slid down the roof, and shot off into the bushes, lol.
i went down to try to fish it out, but couldn't find it anywhere. my customer pulled up just as i heard a little girl across the street yelling, "mom! mom! It's the fairy, it's the fairy!" as I scampered out of the bushes and back into the house, lol.
i love my job.
...
i am in such a pickle! finley told me he was busy tomorrow, so i asked tyler to go to the coast. but now finley is not busy, he was mistaken. i am nervous that a trip to the coast might compromise my dancing tomorrow night, which is very important to me. but tyler time is also very important to me and i don't want to disappoint him. i would rather stay here and start Wednesday tutorials, i need to record those this year and tomorrow is the perfect day to get started on them. i want to cook for josh and get caught up on housework and give the studio some tlc. but but but. beach and tyler, also important. aaaaaaaaaaaagh. i guess i could do studio work and such another day. i just. it has been so long since tyler has cradled me tenderly. he tries sometimes, but i always pull away because he only tries when i'm irritated with him, heh. i just... don't know how hard i want to try to reestablish our closeness. to reconnect. to have some alone time with the person who has influenced my life for the better perhaps more than anyone else i've ever known. he pushed me into josh's arms, i have him to thank for this unbelievably blissful marriage, for a huge portion of my health transformation, for the lookout towers, for summitting mount hood, for mushroom foraging and skiing and hidden forest lakes and silks in the woods and so so so many wonderful things. i kinda owe him.
i am fantasizing about trying to drag finley out to a rural venue outside of seattle to see one of his favorite bands later this summer. would he take a day off of work for it? probably not. as magical as he is to me, he does not ever want to create new experiences together. no matter how many times i try to create something for us. new experiences together are a thing tyler perpetually hungers for.
will i ever not be boy-crazy.
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Date: 2024-07-18 05:19 pm (UTC)That's adorable. I assume you did find your phone?
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Date: 2024-07-18 08:02 pm (UTC)