no clean only eat

omg I cannot motivate to clean or run, all I want to do is eat!

I'm kind of overwhelmed by how much there is to do.

At least I got my workout in and got bone broth started.

I cannot stop eating lol. I've already had yogurt with peanut butter and fruit, avocado toast with hemp seeds, and pumpkin pie with whipped cream, ack! This was supposed to be a recovery day from too much eating. Not off to a good start, serafaery!

I need to soak some stained laundry in laundry soap, sort and wash other stuff, take out trash and recycling, do the floors, omg so much.

If I can get that stuff done, at least maybe I can justify a latte. Or another slice of pie lol. pie is all I can think about right now, ack.

Highly Sensitive People.

oh, unrelatedly, I wanted to comment that so far I'm only in Chapter 2 of Polysecure but there's a helpful insight about attachment disregulation that I've never heard before that makes so much sense. HSP's tend to have difficulty with attachment security. I am an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person.) This makes the entire world an overwhelming and unsafe place, much of the time. I also have childhood trauma and parents suffering with addiction and all the other stuff that typically goes along with development of insecure attachment styles, but the HSP element helps add a dimension of understanding to how difficult it is for me to heal my own disregulation. And it shifts the blame away from parents or upbringing or any internal moral failing, which is really helpful, too. Being an HSP is just hard-wired. I can't turn down my sense of hearing or sensitivity to light or touch or emotions or crowds any more than you can change the colors of your eyes at will. We're something like 18-20% of the population. The only senses I have that aren't highly sensitive are taste/smell. Otherwise I'm pretty much chronically over-stimulated. Which is part of why I think I spend so much time watching ASMR videos, lol. And why I can't even dip my toes into TikTok without developing an instant migraine.