slightly brighter.

[serafaery]

feel a bit better, this morning. it's a legitimate feeling, that my life will never be as good as it was before covid. that is probably true. but i've had a really amazing life up until this point, and i still do. even if it's a little worse, it's still worth it.

i just got really hurt trying to get back to physical activity after lockdown, of course i did, going from nothing to suddenly trying to do what i used to was a bad idea and i'm sure i'm not the only one who tried this and got hurt. i'm almost recovered, i can schedule some work for the rest of the week and get moving again, slowly and carefully, it's okay that this happened. it'll get better.

i'm not sure adopting a cat is the best idea right now though. we'll see how the interview goes, maybe? i committed to being here for stanley in april (a friend's rescue pitbull who's having some really difficult behavioral issues) so i need to consider him first.

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[arethinn]

I had been riding my bike to work for about three and a half years at the time we went into lockdown. It's not a hard or long ride (3 miles), but the outbound trip is uphill -- mostly gentle, one steeper bit approaching a bridge -- and it took some time to work up to doing it in reasonable gears, especially the bridge part. (Which, like with the pushups, I hit a plateau and just couldn't seem to do it any faster; meanwhile, dudes in spandex with glutes and thighs like rocks who clearly bike for hours a day are breezing uphill past me at some speed... but I digress.) For a while last spring I was making occasional nods to still riding even if I was going nowhere in particular, but that collapsed. Now I'll probably have to start over again and try not to hurt myself in the process. :-/